Dear Father as I sit here in the place that you have have kindly provided for me in the stillness of early evening I feel the presence of you upon me, comforting me because of all the things my eyes behold and the words my ears hear poured out from the mouths of many men.
You know my heart is heavy and see the tears drip from my eyes because of the things I see and hear which are these things that you spoke of to your disciples and left behind in the form of a book called the holy bible for all those that would earnestly seek you after you returned unto heaven.
I see all the things you spoke of and the spirit groans within me and my flesh does not know what to do and my mouth cannot speak any words as I sit before you at these times. I see lawlessness abounding, the love of many growing cold, famines, pestilences, wars and rumours of wars, nations rising up against nations, tribe against tribe and much more. In this you in me flows out in such compassion and love mixed with the bitter tears of the hopelessness of all the turmoil that presents itself before me.
Father, I grow weary and my strength is failing and my heart is overwhelmed by this great sadness and yet in this your amazing peace surrounds and holds me fast. I mourn and fast and speak out the words the blessed counsellor puts in my mouth and yet heaven seems like brass and the words bounce back to me like an echo in the night.
Then in these times a vision forms in my mind and I see a small corner portion of heaven open and heavenly light shines down upon and around me. Then the waters of life fill this earthen vessel and I take and eat of the bread of life and lift up my feeble hands to heaven and the strength of the Son of God flows into this earthly tent and it is able once again to stand when it has done all that it can to stand in this fierce onslaught taking place on this earth against your saints.
My mind and thoughts return unto you and I lift up that two edged sword and the shield of faith that thine has given me and brush off and adjust the sandals of peace, the belt of truth and the helmet of salvation and now stand ready once again to face the fray that is coming before me and is here right now.
I purpose in my heart to hang onto all the good things that you send down from heaven and I set my face like flint in your holy name as I take these steps of faith guided by your Holy Ghost as I make my way to my home that you have prepared for me in your kingdom.
So, dear, dear Father, Abba Father, my mouth fills up with words of thanks and praise and knowing all the things I have been taught through your Holy Ghost who has taken what is of yours and revealed them unto me so that I can continue to keep walking and doing all the things that you ordained for me to do in your name, for your glory, honour and praise until that coming time that the breath you breathed into me returns back unto you and then I will sleep until you come and wake me to be with you forever more.
Now that thine has refreshed me once again I take up my cross and follow thee for I will be as you were and all of your true disciples past and present, a fisher of men spreading forth your message of salvation, hope and life in power and authority to all those whom thou brings across my path.
All glory, honor, thanks, praise and worship I freely give unto thee in the holy name of Christ Jesus, my saviour, Lord, King and your Son who sitteth at your right hand in heaven upon your throne in all your holy glory with the voices of your angels crying out, Holy, Holy, Holy is the Lord God Almighty.
Thank you dear Father for spending time with me today and turning my mourning into joy and lifting me up into heavenly places once again and I speak thy words that I love not my life unto death and when I lose my life I find it again for greater is he who lives in me than he who lives in the world.